| Tuesday, March 1st, 2011 |
| 12:31 pm |
My Thoughts on Valentine's Day
funny how i always was the one in school who got the least cards
lol such was life  Valentines Day Cards as a truly pagan holiday i do not "celebrate " it . but as a secular day to remind the one you love how you feel about them ,I can appreciate the emotional boost it can bring and sadly the devastation that can be felt by those who expect those few words from a foolish loved one. so make halmark rich and buy some cards  |
| Tuesday, February 16th, 2010 |
| 10:47 am |
My birthday pick
oatmeal crumb apple or cherry pie with craisins and a side of green mint chip ice cream  |
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| 10:34 am |
A short story with no 'L'
I adore writing stories that make even more sense with things missing that you more often find than not .It re triggers synapses not used over a period of time. in this manner one may repair the brain by forcing it to do things it has forgotten to do and in addition it creates new more exciting routes for the brain to use as it finds new things to do. once upon a time in a country far away there was an idiot , this idiot was not one to express his desires well in front of others and never in front of the one he treasured the most. It came to pass that he was to be rejected and in his eyes despised by the one he treasured more than his own existence.He died in future years bereft of the one thin he desired more than anything on earth, Mindy  |
| 10:12 am |
Feelings that span decades is a sign you're in love
feelings that span decades
after over 40 years of having feelings for a person and after rejection on every level after parting company on graduation how can one still feel so deeply for the person , and maintain a meager life of loneliness if the unconditional love they felt was not real , infatuation does not cut it , that comes and goes and seldom returns . only when you are in love can you feel that person's pain , joy , sorrow and loneliness across time and across the miles inability to truely be in love with others
how can someone live so many years and go through so many relationships and not maintain one of them on a solid footing without something blocking that ability . simple , unconditional and eternal love for someone from your past .
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| 9:43 am |
Dear future relative:do not be like me
When I was a child I thought i had it tough , as i got older all i wanted was to get to live the childhood years over. things were tight but good . We had a home , a family , and good friends. we were known for our being hard workers and not asking for help for anything. in later years I had to depend on the kindness of others and there were a few times it just did not exist. Please do not grow up to be like me. Don't become a loser. Hold your parents close to your heart. hold your siblings tight so they know you are there for them. Do only the things in life to others that you want for yourself . Live your young life to its fullest and do not hook up with the people who tell you that you must accept their views as true without question. Live, Laugh, Do good to all people . show compassion and yet do not waver from your faith in G-d.love your mother, father , grand parents and know they love you. Be faithful to your spouse and raise up your children with faith in G-d and his mercy. but do not let yourself become like I became. You deserve better and YOU have a chance to change the world for the better. it is with this thought that I ask you to be blessed and loved and held in the father's loving arms and if you follow Torah no weapon formed against you will prosper. and you will be blessed
in the love of Messiah Yeshua
shalom alechem
your great great grand pop
clayton Young  |
| Friday, July 10th, 2009 |
| 11:34 pm |
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| Monday, June 15th, 2009 |
| 1:42 pm |
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| Tuesday, April 7th, 2009 |
| 9:31 am |
Dan Juster is someone I admire
Dan Juster
his faith Rev. L Allen Welliver
His Faith , love, gentleness,. his ability to instill values and point me tuward my calling Rabi avner Solomon
His faith in HaShem , and Integrity Trina Stephens
I admire how far she has come in just 3 short years
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| Saturday, April 4th, 2009 |
| 6:26 pm |
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| 6:10 pm |
I'm in the Hall of Fame
I am famous for being a very foolish person who does not know when to stop careing.When you allow yourself to care, there is no way to avoid the pain and loss that you will have handed to you every day of your life. Do not expect happiness or rewards for your good actions. But know that every mistake you make will never ever be forgotten  |
| Tuesday, March 31st, 2009 |
| 12:36 pm |
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| Thursday, March 26th, 2009 |
| 7:30 pm |
I promise it won't hurt much
Well i will have a book for them welcoming them to the community and giving the locations of all the people whose brains they should eat before they come for mine. Hmmm i think your name is there on the list, page 813  |
| Thursday, March 19th, 2009 |
| 11:23 pm |
Happy valentines day
After giving my Girl friend of several years the first real gift i could afford and heading home for the rest of the week ,she sent me a dear clay letter saying how the gift was nothing short of magnificent ...BUT she can not accept it since she has found another that she loves( her boss's husband) did i mention that this was on Valentines day and the new guy was really old  |
| Friday, January 16th, 2009 |
| 12:30 pm |
the doctor
Your result for The Doctor Who Test...
The Doctor36 Personality! 
You are The Doctor! Brilliant! You are intelligent, charming, kind and full of crazy goodness! You enjoy EVERYTHING the world has to offer you! (As long as it isn't morally wrong.) You love to travel and help people along the way. Everything you do has some sort of benefit. You have many friends that love and admire you. So Congrats!
Take The Doctor Who Test at HelloQuizzy
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| Monday, January 5th, 2009 |
| 12:26 am |
Welcome to 2009
As we enter the new year I think about the things i have missed and those i have had the privelege of seeing. after finally getting a job i am working daily till the end of the school year. I have gained a new respect for those that share my ocupation as a school bus driver. It is not a job for bums or stupid people it is a challange and really makes me think how easy all my other jobs were. to those i call friend i have a new number which you may obtain by e lailing me at roehclay at that aol thing. ok and the 2008 year in review January left me still unemployed and stressed as did feb , march , and april . May i posted to Live journal and indeed i did miss Balticon last year.i really wanted to see my friends tovah and EricaVDG. june and july also left me without the chance to be at conferences i always go to .oh well . august still not working but was gifted a trip to Halifax Nova scotia and the conference for the religious organization i am affiliated with since 1999. after meeting with the organizations beit din I finally recieved my ordination as a messianic minister.the following week i attended the PA EMS conference in harrisburg,and was notified that the nightmare that started a full year earlier was finally over ( i am not a child abuser ..duhhh)2 weeks later i started CDL driver training to become a school bus driver for Durham school services... High Holy Days were as they should be , times for reflection and turning away from past foolishness.and went well in June my house mate and i started planning to move her trailer from M&G to crestview mobile home park packing was done in early august and we finally got the occupancy permit the week after christmas. Channukah was very lonely for me this year and the issues ii have been dealing with for the last 14 months again resurfaced in a slightly different manner . I now am driving a flat nose school bus for the local vo-tech school. i also started in october working with a praise and worship team in Red Lion Pa and am ministering to jewish people that are attending local churches . 2009 brings a new goal I am writing a proposal for the organization i am part of suggesting our anual conference be held in York Pa .Who knows i think it is doable and we have a good part of teh logistics ready to research. It is my hope that many of my friends on live journal will see it clear to keep in touch ...i am also on Yahoo dot com 's messenger as Kolshalom love you all and see you soon clayton |
| Sunday, June 1st, 2008 |
| 12:47 am |
no Balticon This year
Saddly i could not make it to Balticon this year
(8 months without a job dampens all the basics of activities)
still searching and hope to find something soon.
was looking forward to seeing my friend Tovahs, and especially my long lost friend ericavdg
i supposeit will be another year till i get to do a face to face .
well i had best hit the hay , much to do will post again soon i hope Current Mood:  depressed |
| Thursday, May 11th, 2006 |
| 9:40 pm |
when do you stop grieving?
lets just say this
My mom died 24 years ago this week i found out 6 months after the fact i will post more later
I need closure on this and I know I am going to hear only that I need to accept the fact that she is gone...
well from most people anyway. I will tell the full story later just understand that I am not pleasent to be around this week or next it is like this every year in may and december i get to morn 2 days , LOL
I must sound like a blooming idiot , but to hear the story over and over from people that knew my mom and heard her say that I did not love her cause I never called. just slams the anger back into me and does not allow me to heal.
I think I am going to drive up to Milton where I am from and have my own little memorial service at the grave
I am going to write what I feel and how I felt and what she meant to me . iI will go up and leave my words there with her sealed and in the earth and pray she can forgive me for not being more the son I should have been. the early 80s for me were ones of total poverty, and sadness . i entered an abusive marriage and the day I found out mom was dead Her only statement was " get over it she's been dead since May , so how much did she leave you " my reply: Nothing it went to my aunt DN . her final comment on it was "loser" . my entire family is now Dead and I miss only one soul out of them all. that is my MOM this time of year and around Christmas/ Chanukah, are very hard on me and I hope I can soon get past my resentment of my aunt.
must have been nice to sell her home in maryland and move to Va Beach with the money from her husband , and from my moms estate since she got it all... She is gone now so i guess it is time to stop my anger. we will see Current Mood: depressed |
| Thursday, March 30th, 2006 |
| 12:04 pm |
i knew i was odd
| Your Quirk Factor: 62% | 
You're so quirky, it's hard for you to tell the difference between quirky and normal.
No doubt about it, there's little about you that's "normal" or "average." |
gotta love it Current Mood:  as in the adjdescribing me |
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